1. 09:58 8th Jul 2013

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    I only compete with myself. (at 24 Hour Fitness)

    I only compete with myself. (at 24 Hour Fitness)

     
  2. For the moment, this is what I want to say.

    I’m 33 years old and I still expect life to be fair, even though its revealed redundantly that life is anything but. It never ceases to amaze me that it never ceases to amaze me.

    Shouldn’t I be jaded by now? Wouldn’t I feel less frustration if I would just accept that things don’t always get wrapped up in a bow and closure is a pop culture Santa Claus?

    Maybe. But.

    I will go out believing, bitches.

    I don’t look back regretting the times I looked stupidly into the light of optimism, even on the occasions that it blinded me.

     
  3. Reposted from one year ago today! Still cigarette free. Wow.

    Reposted from one year ago today! Still cigarette free. Wow.

     
  4. Create and Destroy

    Children do it with blocks - build towers, then smash them. Never to consider whether the next building will be better or not, the process of building and analyzing the creation is the incentive… and they need the blocks back to do it all again. Nature manifests this through disasters, humans find infinite ways. 

    It’s important to remember that with all destruction comes an opportunity to use what you’re left with to put something more sound in its place. Rebuilding should be done with inspiration and responsibility. 

    Make it better. Make it less destructible. Save it from yourself.

     
  5. Emerson Lily was born at 4:48am, 7lbs 14oz, 21 & 3/4 long. She’s perfect. (Taken with Instagram)

    Emerson Lily was born at 4:48am, 7lbs 14oz, 21 & 3/4 long. She’s perfect. (Taken with Instagram)

     
  6. For her…

    I’m not really a country music girl - at all - but today… every word of this.

    I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
    You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger
    May you never take one single breath for granted
    God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
    I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
    Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
    Promise me that you’ll give faith a fighting chance
    And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

    I hope you dance 
    I hope you dance

    I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
    Never settle for the path of least resistance
    Livin’ might mean takin’ chances, but they’re worth takin’
    Lovin’ might be a mistake, but it’s worth makin’
    Don’t let some Hellbent heart leave you bitter
    When you come close to sellin’ out, reconsider
    Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance
    And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

    I hope you dance 
    I hope you dance
    (Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along)
    I hope you dance 
    I hope you dance
    (Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder, where those years have gone?)

    I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
    Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
    Promise me that you’ll give faith a fighting chance
    And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

    Dance…

    (Source: Spotify)

     
  7. And le belly… (Taken with Instagram)

    And le belly… (Taken with Instagram)

     
  8. Dressed up in my Alana costume for the night. Oh look, I’m still in there somewhere… (Taken with Instagram)

    Dressed up in my Alana costume for the night. Oh look, I’m still in there somewhere… (Taken with Instagram)

     
  9. 2 weeks to go. Obscenely pregnant. Also, how funny is my piercing?? Can’t get it off! (Taken with Instagram)

    2 weeks to go. Obscenely pregnant. Also, how funny is my piercing?? Can’t get it off! (Taken with Instagram)

     
  10. 14:58 17th Aug 2012

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    It’s been a trying week…

    Last Friday at my now-weekly doctors visit I found out that the baby was in a breech position. This was incredibly upsetting because my plan has been to avoid a C-section at all costs and have this baby as naturally as possible. It might sound crazy, but I want to be IN the human experience of having a child. To experience all of it, including the pain… knowing and proving to myself that I am capable, that I can handle it. I’ll need to draw on that strength moving forward…

    Yesterday I spent upwards of 6 hours in the hospital for a procedure that attempts to turn the baby into the right position. It’s called an External Cephalic Version. My doctor told me I would feel “mild discomfort”. That was a boldfaced lie. It was excruciatingly painful because I didn’t want to get a spinal. At first I tried going through it without any meds at all, but I had to keep asking them to stop because I couldn’t handle it. So they gave me a mild sedative which more distracted me from the pain than stopped the pain from hitting me. 

    An ECV has about a 50/50 chance of being successful. And there’s a 5% chance that the baby will turn BACK even after a successful attempt. Thankfully, yesterday for us was a SUCCESS! We’re strong girls. :) I’m about to leave for my regular weekly appointment and hopefully they will tell me she’s stayed put. 

    Countdown to due date: 21 days.

    Update: She stayed! :)