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American Boy - Estelle featuring Kanye West

Fri, 18 Jul 2008 22:45:12 -0700

American Boy - Estelle featuring Kanye West

Funny on so many levels…

Fri, 18 Jul 2008 19:09:29 -0700

Funny on so many levels…

7 Amazingly Unique Beach Houses and Lake Houses

Fri, 18 Jul 2008 16:45:25 -0700

7 Amazingly Unique Beach Houses and Lake Houses: Yes, please.

Starstruck - Santogold * I love that my 16 year old sister is...

Thu, 17 Jul 2008 10:51:53 -0700

Starstruck - Santogold

* I love that my 16 year old sister is listening to this stuff. Makes me proud. Good taste obviously runs in the fam.

It's official: Jews can get tattoos now.

Thu, 17 Jul 2008 10:00:57 -0700

It's official: Jews can get tattoos now.:

I’m like, the least Jewish Jew, lol. I have always considered myself spiritual but not religious. I think religion was the OG politics: population control. And here I am blogging about the two topics that are supposed to be off limits. Even on my blog? hehe Nothing is off limits! Anyway, I digress. I got my first tattoo when I was a kid. Yes. A kid. I was 14, my friend had a homemade tattoo gun. The truth? I just wanted to be cool. LOL. Hey I admit it. I was 14! The result was an ugly little rose that makes people go “what IS that?”. I’ve been on the fence about whether to have it removed, or put something over it.

Since then, I’ve gotten more. 2 kanji’s on the back of my neck. One that means pride, and one that means friend, that I got together with my best friend on the way back from a Vegas weekend. I also have a tribal depiction of the infinity symbol on my left shoulder blade. I was 19 when I got both of those. Also when I was 19, right before I moved to CA, I got my only colored tattoo… a butterfly by my bikini line. Got it with my then best friend right before I moved. She has the same one. (2 best friend tattoo’s, hehe). The other? My latest one, that I actually love the most.

…and I am left knowing that I love you more than my own skin.

I got it to honor the love of my last relationship. Though there are a lot of things about it I wouldn’t mind forgetting, it was the first *real* adult “grown folks” kind of love that I just really don’t want to ever forget. Just as much about the victory of discovering that I can love that way, as it was to honor the woman. And no I don’t regret it. I am glad I got it. Because now, as the walls from that relationship that restrained me from being who I am fall down around me, through the cloud of bitterness I sometimes feel… I can look at that tattoo and remember simply… the love.

When I got my first one, my grandparents “plotzed”. I can still hear gramma saying, in her heavy NY Jewish gramma accent, “NOW you can’t be buried in a Jewish cemetery!” Who ever said I wanted to be buried? I want to be cremated. Ashes to ashes… dust to dust. I can’t stand the idea of my physical body, the car my soul drove all my life: rotting and being infested with bugs deep deep in the dirt. Ugh. Another point she made was the tattoo’s the Jews were given in the Holocaust, with the numbers used to identify them. That was horrific, yes: but totally different.

Gramma explained that the Jewish religion said you can’t deface your body. I cleverly pointed out that her getting her ears pierced was no different. She didn’t buy it. I’ll have to forward this article to her. I wonder what she’ll say…

"When you’re taught to love everyone, to love your enemies, then what value does that place on love?"

Tue, 15 Jul 2008 23:17:14 -0700

“When you’re taught to love everyone, to love your enemies, then what value does that place on love?”

- Marilyn Manson (via affremblequotes)

Great DJ : The Ting Tings

Tue, 15 Jul 2008 23:15:22 -0700

Great DJ : The Ting Tings

Today at the Mayfair Market by my house, on Franklin… I...

Sun, 13 Jul 2008 03:18:00 -0700

Today at the Mayfair Market by my house, on Franklin… I saw Amanda Seyfried of Mamma Mia, Mean Girls, and HBO’s Big Love… talking on her cellphone and looking lost wandering from aisle to aisle.

Love her!

* This is the 2nd cast member from Big Love that I have seen about town. And it’s one of my favorite shows, so ya, it does something for me. Last year I saw Mary Kay Place who plays Adaleen Grant at (yes, I’m serious) Roscoe’s Chicken and Waffles.

** If I meet Chloe Sevigny… heck, if I even SEE her… the day will forever be known as the “shriek heard around the world”. No joke.

The Wackness

Sat, 12 Jul 2008 17:37:03 -0700

The Wackness: Ben Kingsley, Mary-Kate Olsen, and Method Man: gimme!

"It’s true that we don’t know what we’ve got until we lose it, but it’s also true that we don’t know..."

Sat, 12 Jul 2008 17:31:53 -0700

“It’s true that we don’t know what we’ve got until we lose it, but it’s also true that we don’t know what we’ve been missing until it arrives.”

- someone who’s got their shit together

"You taste like a vacation…"

Thu, 10 Jul 2008 00:24:26 -0700

“You taste like a vacation…”

Fourth of July debauchery downtown…

Tue, 08 Jul 2008 14:55:31 -0700

Fourth of July debauchery downtown…

Much of the weekend was a blur… kinda like this.

Tue, 08 Jul 2008 14:54:46 -0700

Much of the weekend was a blur… kinda like this.

Stuck in the airport on the way to SF Pride

Tue, 08 Jul 2008 14:52:57 -0700

Stuck in the airport on the way to SF Pride

poser. xoxo

Mon, 07 Jul 2008 15:36:20 -0700

poser.

xoxo

Summer… so far…

Mon, 07 Jul 2008 13:01:33 -0700

Summer… so far…

Personally...

Mon, 07 Jul 2008 11:03:46 -0700

Personally: I wouldn’t date someone 8 years younger than me. I am looking for an equal. If I thought my equal was 8 years younger… I’d work on maturing, and find a potential partner who is at least within a few years of my age. Especially if one has talked about how mature they are and how ready they are for the “real thing”. A girl just a year older than your own little sister might be wonderful and a ton of fun. But an equal? A partner? A person who is remotely “ready”? At best a 21 year old is just beginning to figure out what “ready” means, and is a long way from being even close to settling down and having something real, no matter how good intentioned or “mature for their age”.

Personally: I think a persons blog is for them to write about whatever the hell they want. Putting your life totally out there is foolish… but to vent or make a point on one’s own personal blog, is kind of what the blog is for. Not just showing off your new shit. And if I had no respect for the person I am venting about, I’d name names. If you know me already, then yes, maybe you know who I am talking about. But odds are, if you know me already, you also know the things I am writing before I write them. So this isn’t a surprise to you. And if you don’t know me, you have no idea who this person is. So what’s the damage?

Personally: I take my relationships seriously and when I say “I love you”, it is not conditional. If a relationship doesn’t work out, but you have spent years of your lives together making genuine effort and knowing very deep personal things… it’s pathetic and kind of disgusting in a hypocritical way to let birthday’s pass unacknowledged. It is also dead wrong to justify leaving them to pay thousands of dollars you were responsible for no matter what caused the break up. Especially considering the person you did this to spent thousands upon thousands of dollars on you during the relationship, and you hardly contributed shit. Makes you come off as a user, an ingrate, and one who takes advantage and has no appreciation. Both points: a fake. Neither point a shocker.

Personally: I think a girl you know of because she is dating your date, is no friend. It’s hardly an acquaintance. And to say you think the idea of your date fucking someone else is “hot”, is a prime example of emotional immaturity and is kind of gross. And trashy. What it ISN’T: classy.

Personally: If for almost 3 years you dick someone around, emotionally abuse them, throw their family problems in their face, constantly criticize them and their lives, insult their career, walk in and out of their lives, throw them up against the wall on their birthday when you take them out of town “just to shut them up”, etc. all the while claiming to “love them”… and they wind up so unable to cope with your shit anymore that they pin you down and scream in your face after tolerating being treated less than they deserve for years: can you really claim to be a total victim? Give me a break. Everyone has their breaking point. Is a month of abuse the same, worse, or less than 3 years of it? I’m not sure, but I know if you can’t take it don’t dish it out. We all make mistakes. Your were forgiven. Yet when your partner made ONE mistake, you fucking bailed even though you dished out way worse for years longer. Don’t act like a victim when you were the main abuser, and when the whole world we surround ourselves with kind of knows what an ass hole you were to me. And how much I took.

Just had to get that off my chest. I’m tired of fucking filtering what I say because “one day” I *might* be friends with someone who has pretty much always treated me like this.

"The darkest places in hell are reserved for those who maintain their neutrality in times of moral..."

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 17:44:41 -0700

““The darkest places in hell are reserved for those who maintain their neutrality in times of moral crisis.””

- Dante Alighieri

"I’m breaking my attachment to physical power and possessions, because only through destroying myself..."

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 17:42:19 -0700

“I’m breaking my attachment to physical power and possessions, because only through destroying myself can I discover the greater power of my spirit.”

- Tyler Durden, Fight Club

Facebook Was Shut Off in China Today

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 17:29:02 -0700

ilikeyou:

rickyv:

They could have remained on if they had played by China’s rules and allowed the government to censor their content. But unlike Google and Yahoo and everybody else, Mark Zuckerberg refused to play by their rules and told them to go fuck themselves.

Hats off to you, Mark.