This is our first Mothers Day together! Well, sort of. I’ve been calling it our “.5 Mothers Day”. You’re pretty active today, actually! Kicking and backflipping or whatever it is you’re doing in there. We’re now 117 days away from my due date, which means we’re 23 weeks and 3 days in.
At 20 weeks we were at the halfway point and on that day (April 20th, to be exact) I found out you are a girl! That made me so happy! I would have loved you either way, but deep down I wanted you to be a girl so bad. I’m still trying to figure out what to name you, but I’m really glad I can at least call you “she” now, rather than “the baby”. The one thing I do know is your middle name will be Lily or Lillian after my grandmother, your great grandmother, who I’ve always had a special relationship with. I’ve got 2 names I’ve been going back and forth between, but I’m still looking. It’s your name, such an important thing! I want to be sure of it. I might come up with one more name I like and then decide when you are born, so I can look at you and you can tell me who you are.
It’s gonne be just me and you kid, but I’ll tell you what… gramma Lillian thinks you’re my lucky charm. This has been one of the most successful months of my career and things are only looking up! At first I was scared of how I was going to manage everything on my own, but after a few months of figuring things out, life has never been better. I’ve always been driven, but you coming into my life has made me more ambitious than ever. I want to be able to give you everything you need and deserve. So far, so good.
I can’t wait to meet you! You already have so very many people who love you. Our little family might not be the biggest, but the people in it are everything I’d want you to learn from and count on.
By this time next year you’ll be almost a year old! You’ll be in my lap, you’ll be laughing and smiling and sitting up! I can already tell how fast it’s all going to fly by. You’re not even born yet and then suddenly you’ll be a grown up. I don’t want to take any of it for granted. I’ll savor every moment, I promise you.
I love you already!
Love,
Mommy
